April 27th: Day 3

I began my fast two days ago (Monday, the day after Easter). Monday wasn't very easy to get through simply because I was HUNGRY. Or, at least I thought I was. But, by the end of the day, I was proud of myself. I am definitely glad that I do not work outside of the home though as I was very cranky and irritable. My body (or possibly my brain) wanted food and it made me mad to see even my family around me eating. I was also a little sad to know that there were foods around me that were going to end up going to waste. But, I think this was more spiritual than anything. I kept trying to justify eating something.

On Tuesday, my second day, my stomach was very noisy, but I didn't really get all that hungry until night time just before going to bed. (Perhaps I should clarify that the fast I have chosen to do consists of water, juice, supplements and a protein/meal replacement shake. I know that this may be considered 'cheating' on a fast, but it is what I feel led to do.) I kept waiting for the spiritual side of things to kick in, but it hadn't happened yet. I just kept praying to God for strength and peace. I repented for my attitude and asked that God would show me why it was on my heart to fast.

Today is Day 3. Today has been the worst day by far. I can't remember the last time Ihave had such a terrible headache. I'm not at all hungry and my stomach has stopped growling for the most part. But, I am worn out, dizzy, nauseous and a multitude of other physical things are going on. I am continuing to pray for God's strength and provision. I wish to continue this fast, but I also want to be a responsible steward of His temple (my body). We shall see what the rest of the evening brings. Hopefully I will begin to feel better and have a little more energy.

Oh, and the next time I fast, I will do better to be more prepared physically and spiritually. And, perhaps I will be more careful about scheduling it around major events. I didn't really know what I was going going into this fast, so I jumped in with both feet (though it feels like I jumped in with my head this time around). Lord, give me the strength, courage and resolve to see this fast through to the end. Amen.